Challenges wear us down. We question our place, our purpose. We readily put our hand's in the air in despair and say enough. We say it's too much, too hard and I cannot do this. Overwhelm. Our faith shakes and vision blurs. Clarity replaced by confusion. Calm replaced with chaos.
When we reach that space, doubt and questions take hold. We doubt our abilities. We doubt our worthiness. We question God. We question the why, the how, the when and the who. During worship at church on Sunday, I stood there in silence thinking about where I was in this whole life thing. You see, I get lost sometimes, confused. I question whether I can do what God has put on my heart to do. I question where I am and whether I am on task. Have I missed hearing his voice and my own person needs have taken over?
I am surrounded by an amazing group of people who inspire me but I still have questions and doubts from time to time. That sure footing at times is not so sure, from a direction point of view. I want to get to the end of my race and cross that finish line well. I don't want to miss a thing, not one step. There is so much to do and I see years ticking by and feeling like I have not made enough progress. I am too slow for the race and am falling behind. Do I have the strength for this? Can I keep up or will I fade and fall back?
God spoke to me in that moment as I stood there still. Distractions ceased and for a couple of minutes, it was just God and I.
He reminded me that when we are obedient to him, when we step up to the plate as he has asked, the tasks can seem overwhelming. For we see with our human eyes what lies ahead. However God sees things differently. He works behind the scenes manouvering, positioning and preparing all that lies before us. His timing is perfect, I need only to follow. He leads, not I. I don't have to be at the front of the pack, I just need to keep going. Then these words were loud and clear... When he calls us, he equips us. Not only will he give us strength in our legs to rise, he will give us the strength to run.
Those last few words, 'Strength to Run' have been repeating over and over again in my head since Sunday. Running - requires energy, sure footing, stamina, endurance and breathing control. To run a marathon you need to train and God trains us for race ahead. My season now is in preparation for the season (or seasons) ahead. I may feel like I am at walking pace but the time will come when I will need to run. The pace will pick up, God will move and I need to be able to move with him.
When it comes to our race, when he calls us and says it is time to move, we rise and stand at that starting line. However, we don't stand there alone for God lines up with us. When the starters gun fires, he runs with us. Constantly ahead of us, guiding us. Yes there will be challenges and obstacles but God has already overcome them. He waits for you...calling your name, encouraging you to keep going, to push on, to overcome, to run.
Today rise my dear sister, rise to the challenge before you. Rise as you hear his call and be prepared to run. He is equipping you for your race. Keep your eyes firmly fixed on the prize and when he says run, run with all your heart for Christ.